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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: EPI S: Two sides, same coin [Day 03 | 0930]
Last post by Ellen Fitz -She lifted her head off his breastplate. Her eyes crossed. She held that state — staring at approximately nothing, two inches in front of her own nose — before her vision resolved itself back into Hauq's face with the reluctant cooperation of a system rebooting under protest. She blinked. Once. Twice. Gave her head a single careful shake the way a person does when they're testing whether everything is still attached.
Her fingers went to her eyebrow. She pulled her hand back and looked at it. A thin smear of red crossed two fingers. The giggle was immediate and completely without dignity.
"I went through an entire battle," she said, to no one in particular, staring at her own hand, "untouched. Not a scratch." She looked down at his breastplate — at the faint red mark her eyebrow had left on the ridged surface of his armor — and the giggle compounded into something that shook her shoulders. "I survived the battle and I bled on your chest plate." She pressed the back of her wrist against the cut, still laughing in the exhausted, helpless way that lives just on the other side of the threshold of what a person can reasonably absorb in a single day.
She pushed off him then, got a hand flat on the floor, and rolled onto her back beside the wreckage of the chair. And stayed there. The ceiling of her office looked back at her, neutral and unhelpful. She didn't move. Didn't attempt to manufacture any version of professional composure. The floor was where she was and the floor was where she would be for a moment because her body had simply filed a report and the report said: enough.
Then something dug into her hip. She frowned. Lifted her hips, reached underneath, and extracted two bloodstones from beneath her with the long-suffering expression of a woman who has accepted that the universe operates on its own terms entirely. She set them on her sternum without looking at them, lowered herself back down, and stared at the ceiling again.The stones rose and fell with her breathing.
"What do you do," she said, to the ceiling, her voice carrying the flat quality of genuine curiosity stripped of all social packaging, "to destress?" One second of silence. Then she kept going. "Not the blade-against-a-sparring-partner kind of destress. I mean the other kind." Her head turned to look at him, still flat on the floor, cheek resting on the carpet among the scattered bloodstones. "The bone-tired kind. Battle-weary. When you've used everything you have and the idea of lifting a weapon against anything, even someone you like hitting, sounds like being asked to run a second marathon immediately after finishing the first."
She looked at him. Actually looked at him — the sheer architectural fact of him, the particular solidity that suggested the words bone tired had perhaps never been required to apply — and something shifted in her expression into a kind of resigned self-awareness. She snorted.
"You've never felt that way in your life." She said it without accusation, simply as a reclassification of the data. Her eyes returned to the ceiling. "Alright. Different question." She lifted one of the two bloodstones off her sternum, held it up between her thumb and forefinger, studied the deep red of it catching the light. "What would you suggest. For someone in my position. Creature of chaos, currently horizontal on her own office floor, bleeding slightly, surrounded by Martok's generosity in its most literally scattered form." She set the stone back down on her sternum, watching it rise and fall. "What does a person like that do when the day is finally, mercifully over — assuming the day ever actually ends — to keep from simply dissolving into the carpet?"



