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Director's Cut / Re: [Stardate 57714.5: May 12th, 2381] - Boldly they rode...
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[ Lt. Enyd Isolde Madsen | Security Centre | Deck 7 |Vector 2| USS Theurgy ] ATTN: @Hans Applegate @Pierce @P.C. Haring @RyeTanker

Enyd stood before the assembled team with the data chip resting in her open palm like it weighed considerably more than its physical mass suggested, which it did. She did not fidget with it. She did not look down at it. There was a specific category of discipline that came not from training but from the knowledge that if you let yourself look at the thing in your hand, you might let yourself think about how it had come to be there, and that particular line of thinking was not available to her right now. She had filed it. She would retrieve it later, when the architecture of the immediate crisis was no longer load-bearing, and she would sit with it properly. Just not now.

"The chip contains internal Tal Shiar communications," she said. Her voice came out even, which was a miracle considering how much she wanted to scream and cry over everything that was happening around them. "Encrypted directives from Tal'aura's inner circle. Proof of contingency plans targeting both Romulan and Reman leadership. Assassination authorizations. Fabricated intelligence designed to sustain and prolong this conflict past any natural conclusion." Her jaw tightened. "It demonstrates that this war was never meant to end in any outcome that involved either side winning. Only in an outcome that involved Tal'aura's faction retaining control over both."

She let that land. One of the things Cardassia had taught her — among the many things she had not asked to learn— was the particular importance of letting a true thing have the silence it deserved before you moved past it.

"Kino Jeen died ensuring we had this opportunity," she continued.

The words were steady even as her mind's eye saw the woman's blood pooling around her body.  Her gaze moved across the team, cataloguing — it was involuntary by this point, the near-eidetic habit of her mind committing faces and postures to memory in the way it had always committed things she might need later, whether she intended to or not. She had come to think of it less as a gift and more as the brain's stubborn refusal to let her travel light.

"So." Her hands found their way behind her back, which was where they went when she needed to look more authoritative than she currently felt. Her grandmother had told her once that the difference between confidence and the appearance of confidence was smaller than people thought, and that in a room full of people who needed to believe you knew what you were doing, the appearance was almost as functional as the real thing. Almost. "Non-lethal force whenever feasible. Stuns. Disables. Contain and move on. You do not need to be gentle about it," she added, because she had learned that teams sometimes heard non-lethal and interpreted it as tentative, and tentative got people killed. "Efficient is fine. Thoroughness is encouraged. Theatrical is unnecessary and time-consuming."

She allowed a small pause. "And in case it was not sufficiently obvious — do not hesitate to neutralize a threat that requires neutralizing. I will not have any of you killed for the sake of optics. The optics will survive." No objections. Good. "The reason for the restraint is practical rather than sentimental," she continued, which was not entirely true but was true enough to be useful. "It is going to look fairly remarkable — and I mean that in the original sense of the word, the sense where people remark on it because they cannot quite believe what they are seeing — if I stand in front of Donatra and ask her to lay down her arms and abandon a thalaron weapon while we have just spent the last hour carving a path through her crew. Diplomacy requires, at minimum, the appearance of good faith. We will do our best to provide an actual version of it."

She had watched diplomacy attempted with insufficient good faith on Cardassia, and she was aware of what insufficient good faith produced.

"When I reach Donatra," she said, and her voice shifted into something that was not softer exactly but deeper, the register she used when she was saying something she had thought through to the bottom of, "I will tell her what is on this chip. I will tell her that the manipulation is documented and over. I will tell her that there is an opportunity — a real one, not a Federation-constructed one, not a trap — for a ceasefire. For Romulan and Reman forces to stop killing each other long enough to look at the same evidence and decide together what they want to do about it."

She was aware this was, by any realistic assessment, an ambitious goal. She was also aware that every significant diplomatic outcome she had ever been part of had looked, at some point before it was achieved, like an ambitious goal.

"Theurgy will remain neutral in any talks that follow. We will not dictate terms. We will not install leadership or advocate for particular outcomes. The Romulan and Reman people will determine their own future — but they cannot do that if they have annihilated one another today." She took a breath. "A ceasefire buys them time. Time to verify the information on this chip independently."

Her grandmother had a saying about the difference between winning an argument and winning a war, and the relevant part of it was that winning a war required your opponent to still be standing at the end of it, capable of choosing to stop. You could not make peace with rubble.

"Donatra is not a fool," Enyd said. "By now she has almost certainly detected the same long-range sensor readings we have — additional Starfleet vessels en route, intentions unknown." Her gaze sharpened. "She does not know if they are coming to help us, to stop us, or to complicate everything in ways no one has fully anticipated yet. Neither do we. A ceasefire also gives everyone on this side of that uncertainty time to prepare rather than escalate. This is, if nothing else, a case where buying time is genuinely valuable and not merely a delay of the inevitable."

She looked to Zark for a moment — an unspoken exchange, the kind that developed between people who had survived things together and no longer needed to narrate all of it.

"While I negotiate — with Commander Zark at my side — the rest of you will proceed to the thalaron weapon. Do what is necessary." She emphasized the word deliberately and let it stand alone for a moment. Not reckless. Not performative. "Stop it." She exhaled once, slow and even. "I would very much like to believe that this ends with everyone making reasonable decisions and no further bloodshed." A small, dry quality entered her voice — not flippancy, but the particular kind of honesty that came out sideways when the situation was serious enough to require it. "I have, however, been doing this work long enough to have a fairly calibrated sense of how often that is the outcome. So." The dry quality receded. "Assume the worst. Hope for the best. Keep your heads. And stop the weapon."

Her fingers closed around the data chip. "Let's go."
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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epilogue: They That Shed Their Blood [Day 03 | 1800 ]
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[ Lt.Thane Va’rek ] | Arboretum | Deck 22 | Vector 03 | USS Theurgy ] Attn:  @Brutus  @Nolan  @ob2lander961  @chXinya @Dumedion  @Griff  @rae  @Stegro88  @Eirual @RyeTanker @tongieboi  @Pierce  @Tae  @Nesota Kynnovan  @Hans Applegate  @joshs1000  @P.C. Haring  @Krajin  @Eden  @TWilkins

It had been only hours since his emergency defrosting in the cryobay and the horrible experience of what it must feel like to be buried alive. The Ferasan stood in the walkway that led to the Arboretum near the Romulan, Hirek, and observed the entire spectacle from where he was. As normal, the Ferasan was impeccable in presentation, fur neat, hair spiked as he liked to style it, clan paint on the face, and his uniform pressed to perfection. He stood with his hands clasped behind his back and stared straight ahead at the President and the wall behind the woman.

Grief washed over the crowds like a dark tidal wave as they looked upon the wall and heard the names of those who had passed or were placed into stasis. That darkness threatened to drown all in its path if it weren't for that burst of bright blue of inspiration and determination as the speech went on. It flooded through the darkness with streaks of blue in a stark contrast.

Let the crew mourn, we have work to do here. He turned slowly on one heel and left the arboretum. He had quite a lot to organise and get sorted for his new job. If people saw him as cold for it, that was on them.

[ Lt. JG Dominic Winters | The Den | Deck 16 | U.S.S Theurgy

Atlas sat in The Den while most people had gone up to the Arboretum to pay their respects and listen to the Federation President do her Peacocking and Politics with everyone. He hated it. The words were hollow and always meant nothing when it came to politicians who only to him, said what they said to look good and show they cared. Yet they would never step foot into the arena of war and rather acted like armchair generals.

He'd seen too much death from the Dominion War, where pilots had a low as hell survival rate with the Peregrines. The  Thunderball had a section of Deck 10 dedicated to the Memorial of the pilots and crew of the ship, along with another of fellow vessels. Hell, his name had gone up on there as MIA at one point. Every pilot handled their mourning alone and while Atlas had never met most of these people, he could still feel the weight of their loss on him. Fellow pilots, wolves, the ground crew that was not often shown the appreciation they deserved and earned since they pulled feats of engineering. These people would be down here soon enough after to have their wakes as the different bars and galleys on the ship would be occupied and a few would seek to avoid the pomp of El Presidente lingering around to shake hands and have their faces on the F.N.N.

Instead, Atlas enjoyed an Old Fashioned while in dress uniform at the bar. The alcohol was replicated so it wouldn't get him drunk. His body would process it into sugars faster than he could make them unless he chugged a bottle of real whiskey. He didn't need to be there in his mind, and honestly, it was probably for the best. He'd call the President out for her words, and as far as he saw from the broadcast, it certainly seemed that way. Hopefully the remaining Wolves would come down, or maybe someone would manifest out to tell him off for not being there. Either way, company may be had soon enough.

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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epilogue: They That Shed Their Blood [Day 03 | 1800 ]
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[Ens. Talia “Shadow” Al-Ibrahim | Arboretum | Deck 22 | Vector 3| USS Theurgy] Attn: All
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I don’t want to be here.

Of all the days tasks that needed to be done, Talia dreaded walking into the Arboretum the most; she didn’t want to be there – didn’t want to hear the names of the lost – didn’t want to let herself feel the collective weight of all that sacrifice. She’d seen enough during the battle to know that thousands had likely perished. She went anyway, of course; dress uniform immaculate, hair braided into obedience, head held high, shoulders back… just another face amidst a sea of faces staring up at the terrace above.

Commander Stark’s words were inspiring. Talia had never met or even seen the woman, yet found the words heartening and uplifting – enough to rouse the pilot’s attention away from her own cauldron of grievous emotions and treacherous, irrational thoughts – adding her own raw voice to the chorus that answered.
 
Less than a month ago, I was just another broken body frozen in  stasis, Talia reflected, in the quiet lull while the President stepped up to speak. She’d woken and been briefed on everything, had read the reports herself…yet never given herself time to dwell much on what they meant. Three weeks of the most intense training she’d ever endured immediately followed; Talia had thrown herself into mastering the Mk. III with typical obsessive zeal – knowing the odds of survival were laughably low. Her mind flicked through the few friends and acquaintances she’d managed to run into along the way: Medusa, Gramps, Kali, Moody, Duchess, Skittish…Pretty-Eyes.

Hirek was likely long gone; back to his island paradise on Romulus – that dream of a place –reunited with his kin to live out his days in peace. That’s what she hoped for him, at least, refusing to dwell on any other outcome. Talia blinked slowly at the thought, lips twitched into a frown as her mind raced into places she didn’t want to go. She hadn’t seen the official reports yet. Hope remained that the rest of them managed to stay alive…she vowed to find out as soon as possible, and to see them if able, as a profound sense of loneliness covered her like a shroud…

She wished he was there…if only to share a quiet look, or a knowing smile. She missed him; missed the way he aggravated her so easily, and the way he made her feel safe to just be herself around him. That realization alone threatened to spill a tear from her eye.

Dark, watering eyes tracked across the sea of strangers around her.

I shouldn’t even be here. I haven’t endured anything close to what the rest of them have suffered. In her mind, she saw Rawley’s crooked grin while she had spelled it all out…

Six months on the run: contagion, god-like entities, a future sent to destroy them with an entire Task Force hunting them. Treachery from within – yet they fought on in desperation to call out the truth. They fought everything from Starfleet to Savi to Borg. Survived a Klingon Civil War. Lived through horrors I cannot imagine…

Talia's brows creased as she screwed her eyes shut. It felt…cheap…to stand there, on the shoulders of so many that had sacrificed so much only to fall on the eve of accomplishing what they had fought so hard for: the truth. It was out now – the President of the Federation was right there – living vindication for all of it.

I wish you were here, ace, Shadow managed a weak smile, despite it all, thinking of what Ghost would have to say. About bloody time, or something to that effect, she mused.

It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t right…but there was nothing she could do except remember the ones that couldn’t be there – even if she barely knew them. To honor what they fought for, to keep fighting for it. To make damn sure that it was worth it in the end.

Talia bowed her head as the President spoke, breathing deeply to calm herself; swallowing her grief and guilt by force of will – commanding her body to relax and endure the uncomfortable closeness of all the bodies around her. Refusal to break in public warred with the instinct to run from pain, lighting her anger and adrenaline in equal measure.

I don’t deserve to be here, the pilot fumed internally, behind a façade of calm acceptance. But I’ll earn it by carrying on – to whatever end – for all of you. By living, she breathed out, by living, not just surviving.

The Federation stands with you.”

Talia’s eyes rose at the words, brow knitted, jaw clenched; her whole body trembled with suppressed emotion.

You fucking better, she growled silently.
 
[LT Arven Leux | Med Lab 01 | Main Sickbay | USS Theurgy]

Having woken up hours ago mid-fall from the couch in the CMO’s office, Arven looked and felt like he’d died and forgotten to lay down; dressed in the same uniform he’d left the wreckage of his quarters in – thanks to a very specific individual that he refused to even name, just in case she manifested like the red-headed plague she was – facial stubble well on its way to a ragged short beard – eyes bloodshot but attentive.

A hot goddamn mess, in short.

He focused intently on the simulation data that played across the screens before him, bathed in blue-white light: a difficult case, which had been further compounded by even more unfortunate circumstance…

Two individuals linked by unimaginable atrocity; their bodies violated at the cellular level, to satisfy morbid unethical curiosity. One had already perished, her body unable to cope with the agony. The other…

Well.

Arven worked to find a solution, while his own problems were pushed aside without ceremony; it was easier for him that way, actually. Vulpinian biological processes streamed into digital mimicry of life, natural and unaltered. In the background, barely registered while his mind worked to absorb and understand what was possible and what was not, a female voice addressed the crew, ship-wide.

Arven’s brow knitted in concentration; there was something in her tone that gnawed at him – as if he had forgotten about something important. It was annoying, and terribly distracting; worse than the hours he spent treating the various Vaharran newcomers and their endless questions and commentary.

“This is intolerable,” Leux finally growled, then threw a padd at the speaker nestled into the ceiling above him. “I’m bloody working,” he snapped, then sighed and blinked his tired eyes, trying to work the tension out of his shoulders.

Ah, the damned memorial, his eyes snapped open, only for his head to slowly lower to the terminal in defeat. “Shit.”

Memorial...Memory! Auto-mematic neurosynergistics! His body jerked upright, fingers dancing across the keys in a flurry of command inputs - layered upon layered as the imagery rotated, zoomed, and networked the entirety of the Vulpinian chromataphoric cellular structure – activation pheromones, support nuerophlages – down to the individual protein complex combinations of DNA. It all functioned, in theory, off memory. Intrinsic, instinctual, but memory.

“I cant repair what’s lost…but I can still use what remains,” Arven muttered aloud, utterly consumed by the task at hand. “It wont heal the trauma…but maybe…you’ll get back a little of what you lost. Maybe.”

He worked away, and hoped he was right. He’d lost enough patients already – enough for a lifetime of doubt and regret – if he ever allowed himself to stop and reflect...

But who had time for that?
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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epi S: [Day 03 | 0800] Meeting of the Minds
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[Lieutenant Dr. Nathan Frost, Ph.D. | Deck 01 | Conference Lounge | USS Theurgy]
[Attn: @Brutus, @Pierce, @chXinya, @Eirual, @Ellen Fitz]

When the doors of the Conference Lounge hissed open with their signature hydraulic hiss, Frost shifted his attention away from the man he’d just addressed and turned his blue-eyed gaze onto the woman who walked in. He noticed how she waved at him and, in response, Frost raised his right eyebrow while he tried to figure out who this woman was supposed to be. The woman immediately apologized and mentioned that she was still getting her bearings and, in all fairness as he was a new transfer as well, Frost understood only too well how the massive multi-vector assault dreadnaught could be hard to navigate. Especially in her current state.

As the woman introduced herself as Ashley Kerina, a cyberneticist, Frost’s facial expression softened slightly and he presented the red-haired cyberneticist with a curt nod. Before he could welcome her aboard however, the male scientist whom Frost had initially addressed beat him to it by speaking up and mentioning that Kerina could possibly help the old Chief Science Officer. It prompted Frost to open his mouth and present the man with a somewhat exasperated look, but he couldn’t produce more than a petty, semi-annoyed sound before he closed it again. Unsure of what exactly annoyed him more. It was definitely because the man overstepped his authority, but a part of Frost wasn’t sure whether that was because the man had beat him to welcoming the new scientist aboard or because he’d began handing out assignments just like that.

Before Frost could settle on a satisfying answer, the man introduced himself as Sarresh Morali. Upon hearing that Morali was the scientist in charge of the Temporal Observatory Lab, the Canadian immediately disliked the man even more. Just mere hours ago, when he was making his visual assessment of the various laboratories aboard the ship and their respective conditions, Frost had spent more time attempting to gain access to the Temporal Observatory Lab than he cared to admit. The worst part was that he’d failed and Frost, not beneath harbouring a grudge, had taken it personal. On the bright side, the Temporal Observatory Lab apparently wasn’t damaged beyond anything Morali could handle himself, so Frost knew that it wasn’t his problem.

Things only got worse instead of better as Morali continued though, and Frost’s facial expression hardened considerably as he heard the emphasis on the word acting head. A part of him wanted to speak up and voice his opinion on this affront, but he could see that both Lieutenant Junior Grade Angharad and Lieutenant Junior Grade Zarqan were glaring in the direction of the temporal scientist as well. Neither one of them wanted yet another fight so soon after the last Battle, that much was obvious, so Frost chose to hide his anger beneath an annoyed grimace before he took a long, quiet sip from his coffee. bitter liquid did little to improve his mood and Frost, once again not beneath harbouring a grudge, took it personal. Especially when Morali finished with ”eh?”, which the Canadian interpreted as a swing at his accent.

And then came the silence as Morali stopped talking and Frost just kept glaring at him, mirrored by Angharad and Zarqan. The quiet hum of the impulse engines, which was normally just a background sound that barely anyone actively registered in their minds, became quite obvious now. After several seconds, Frost nodded and gestured that Morali could sit back down again. After the Battle and everything else the crew of the USS Theurgy had gone through, which Frost quite honestly couldn't begin to imagine, he was willing to give Morali some benefit of the doubt for now, at least until he knew for certain if the man was deliberately trying to bait him. ”Right, thank you.” While his annoyance was mostly hidden beneath his grimace, it could definitely be heard in Frost’s Canadian-accented voice before he turned his attention to the blonde-haired Xenoanthropologist. ”Miss Dunne, you have the floor.”
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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epilogue: They That Shed Their Blood [Day 03 | 1800 ]
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[ Lt. Cmdr. Cross | Bridge | Deck 01 | Vector 01 | USS Theurgy ]
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The applause from the arboretum rolled faintly through the bridge speakers and Cross stood at the center of it all like a man waiting for the other boot to drop. He did not applaud.

It wasn't that he lacked appreciation for Commander Stark's address, or for the weight of what had been memorialized. Those words were necessary. The dead deserved their accounting. He understood that better than most people aboard this ship cared to imagine — he had grown up in a Cardassian labor camp, raised alongside eleven other experiments as though sentiment were a resource to be rationed. He had held a dead sister in his mind's eye for fifteen years and never once had a proper ceremony to set her down.

It was not the memorial itself that set his jaw. It was the position. Acting Executive Officer. Temporary, they said. Provisional. A bridge until Captain Ives returned to stand on their own bridge.

If.

The word had the peculiar quality of a hairline fracture — invisible from most angles, catastrophic under pressure. Cross was aware of it the way he was aware of the prosthetic at the end of his left arm: constantly, without drama, a fact that had simply become load-bearing. He had not wanted this. He had wanted tactical. A clear field of fire and clean variables and the comfortable brutality of problems that could be solved by sufficient force or sufficient cleverness. Executive Command was standing in a room full of people who looked to you the way they'd once looked at someone else, and finding yourself acutely aware of the gap. He had filed approximately forty-seven reports since taking the provisional XO's chair, consumed enough raktajino to fuel a small shuttle, and slept in segments measurable in minutes.

The very idea of a proper meditation session felt obscene under the circumstances. His Vulcan half (now whole) demanded it with increasing insistence. His instructors had once described his meditative technique as "enthusiastic." They had meant it as a criticism. He had chosen to interpret it as a compliment and moved on. The structured quiet that meditation promised was not currently available to him. Things aboard the Theurgy were not settled enough to permit it.

His gaze shifted — he was not going to pretend it was unbidden — to the lower quadrant of the viewscreen as the memorial camera swept across the gathered crew. Chief Counselor Hathev stood among them. Whole. Present. Alive. He exhaled through his nose, slowly enough that no one on the bridge would register it.

Their situation was complicated, though the word felt inadequate. He had stumbled into intimacy the way a man might stumble off a perfectly ordinary curb — through a failure to correctly assess the terrain, at speed, with consequences. The aftermath had shifted something in her. He had handled it with the grace of a man whose primary model for romance had been unrequited and unconfessed and eventually overtaken by a transfer order. Aside from a brief exchange in the XO's office earlier that day, he had done nothing. He was, by any reasonable metric, the worst romantic prospect in the quadrant. He was also aware that "I have been doing approximately one hundred other things" was not, in point of fact, an excuse. He had once cauterized his own arm against a heated bulkhead on the Versant. He could probably manage a conversation.

He chose, with deliberate irony, not to examine that too closely.

"Continue standard operations," he said. His voice came out even. It always did, when he needed it to.

The bridge obeyed. He pulled the next requisition report and began to read. Work remained. It was, perhaps, the only reliable constant any of them had left. Starfleet had given his conviction a uniform and a purpose. He would not waste either. Not while there was still something left to protect.

[ Lt. Enyd Isolde Madsen | Shuttlecraft Aegir | Approaching USS Theurgy ]
President Nanietta Bacco's voice filled the cramped cockpit with the particular quality of a person who had learned, at considerable personal cost, the difference between conviction and performance. Enyd recognized it because she had spent years learning the same lesson.

She sat in the copilot's seat with a mug of coffee gone cold — the precise moment she'd stopped registering it as a drink and started using it as something to hold onto unknown. The memorial played across the shuttle's small forward display, a sad display for a memorial she knew she should attend in person but whose duties with the Remans prevented it. She watched it the way she watched most things that mattered: with her full attention and the practiced stillness of someone whose near-eidetic memory meant she only needed to see something once to carry it the rest of her life, whether she wanted to or not.

The President had exercised executive authority. Publicly, decisively, without the luxury of exhaustive debate. Enyd could not fault it. She had watched Castellan Ghemor navigate the impossible arithmetic of Cardassia's rebuilding and watched that arithmetic fail him in the worst possible way. The price of delay, when the situation had already outpaced process, was a cost paid in people. She also knew that every executive precedent was a door held open for whoever came next, and some of those people would walk through it in shoes very different from Bacco's. Precedent never cared about your intentions. Only what it could be used to justify later.

Her grandmother would have had something to say about that. Ida Madsen had raised her on the family ranch in Montana with the philosophy of a woman who had watched enough history to know that good intentions left unexamined had a way of becoming the paving material for very uncomfortable roads. You think, Enyd. You think before you leap, and then you leap anyway because sometimes there's no other option, but you don't get to be surprised by where you land. Enyd had been surprised by where she landed, more than once. She was still working on that.

Alistair. The exchange over comms had been almost funny in its simplicity, which was probably why she hadn't cried. Are you alive? Yes. You? Also yes. She had been sitting with her hands very deliberately flat on the console because her grip had gone tight enough to hurt. He was intact. She was allowing herself, provisionally, to file that under victories. Zark was a harder calculation. Technically dead. Pulled back by Doctor Leux and whatever stubborn will Zark had decided to exercise in the direction of her own continued existence. Enyd was grateful for both. She was also still metabolizing the whiplash — the swing from their recent morning together to the sterile shock of a recovery ward, the particular horror of watching someone who had been laughing be clinically described as having flatlined. She had held it together on the grounds that falling apart in a medical bay was not useful to anyone.

She would process it later. Fate, she had concluded, had a sense of humor that bordered on the pathological. She could either find it funny or find it unbearable, and she had already done unbearable — had spent several months on Vulcan being professionally unbearable, to the point of performing an Orion slave dance on a conference table and punching a Tellarite official. The Forge had burned what remained of that phase clean. She had walked out of it with blistered feet, a talent for gratitude, and a firm grip on the distinction between grief and self-pity. Grief was something you carried. Self-pity was something you set down outside yourself and then stood in the way of.

The docking clamps engaged. Enyd drained the cold coffee in one swallow. Her grandmother had been entirely right about cold coffee on general principle, but Montana practicality held that wasted caffeine was wasted caffeine. The ramp lowered. The Theurgy's familiar atmosphere washed over her — recycled air, faint ozone, and something underneath that she had come to recognize as the ship's own quality, as distinct as a fingerprint. She took stock: antsy, wired, bone-deep tired in a way that had nothing to do with sleep debt and everything to do with the weight of caring about people in circumstances where their continued existence could not be guaranteed.

Her office was waiting. The Reman concerns would not resolve themselves. She would triage, catch the archived memorial minutes while working, drink another gallon of coffee, and make notes her colleagues would find overly thorough and possibly impolite. She had been told her margin notes bordered on editorializing. She had considered that a fair critique and done nothing about it. She straightened her uniform and tucked the empty mug under her arm. The Madsen family thread ran long. She was somewhere in the middle of it, not the beginning and not the end, which meant her job was to carry it forward intact. She could crash later.

[ Corpsman Ehfva Feynri | Medical Ward | Deck 08 | USS Theurgy ]

President Nanietta Bacco's voice moved through the medical ward's overhead speakers like water moving through stone — shaping itself to the available space, finding the cracks. Ehfva listened the way she had been taught before she had been taught anything else: with her whole body, without the need to fill the silence with her own response. Silence, the elders of Okashii Atama had believed, was not absence. It was the form that patience took when it was doing its real work.

She moved between biobeds and kept listening. Vitals checked. Dermal regenerator settings adjusted with hands that were — mostly — her own again. The fur had continued its slow reclamation of territory the Savi had tried to rearrange, and the bone structure had softened toward something she recognized in the deeper part of herself that memory lived in. She was still unsettling to look at, and she did not blame the patients who stared. Curiosity was honest. She had always found honest responses easier to be around than performed ones.

Small acts of attention. A smoothed blanket here. A repositioned pillow there. The elders of Okashii Atama had believed that care was not a feeling so much as a practice, that it lived in the hands before it lived in the heart, and that the hands were where you found it when the heart was too tired to be trusted. Her hands knew what to do.

She would not sleep if she could help it. Sleep was where Keokuk now lived, warm and laughing in the particular way he had laughed when something pleased him genuinely rather than politely. He had laughed like that when she finally showed him all her forms — not the careful partial-revelation she had offered the merchant clan kits while still learning the world was larger than Okashii Atama had suggested, but all of them. He had said she was honored to know all her spirits. Those had been his exact words — his people's framing, his understanding of a body that held more than one self — and she had committed them to the archive of things she could not afford to lose.

Nicoma. The name he had given her in private. We stand together. I do as I promise.

She did not say it aloud. She said it in the space behind her sternum, where it had always lived, and continued her patrol.

She had survived two wars before this one. The Vulpinian civil war — kin against kin, the brutality of people turned against each other by Ferengi interference — and the Dominion War, which had felt, by comparison, almost clean in its enmity. An alien enemy was easier to confront than a familiar face wearing the wrong expression. She had understood this since the first time she emerged from an infiltration mission with blood on her pelt that would not wash clean in the technical sense of the word, and the Kyodai Obi had called her Ha'tIa in that tone of half reverence and half caution. She had accepted both. Neither changed what had actually occurred.

The Savi had been different. They had not simply tortured her. They had turned her body into an instrument against her, her ability to shift reduced to a switch they could throw, a variable in their data set. She had spent twenty years becoming comfortable in every form she wore — built that comfort slowly, with attention, accepting the discomfort of the middle stages as the cost of arriving somewhere solid. They had dismantled it in days. She was building it again, the way a damaged bone is aware of its own mending: not always pleasantly, not always at a useful pace, but proceeding.

Glancing at a vid-screen to see the memorial wall in the background of the display, Ehfva wished there were a memorial wall for the Cayuga. The Theurgy's names carved in stone were real, and their loss was real, and she respected each one. She also knew the names she could not add. The Cayuga's dead had no stone here. She would build her own — not yet, while her forms were still unsteady, since blood painting required the feral state's full sensory access, and to do it wrong would be a greater dishonesty than waiting. But she had already begun composing it in her mind: the pattern, the crimson weight of each stroke. Keokuk at the center. That much she knew. Everything else would take its proper shape around him.

The applause from the arboretum arrived faintly through the ward's speakers. Ehfva adjusted a final setting and stood still in the way she had been taught — not passively, but with full attention directed inward. Her body said: still here. She had survived the civil war and the Dominion and a cold chamber where she had waited for a death that did not come. She did not yet know what shape surviving this particular loss would take when it had finished finding its form. But she knew how to wait. She knew how to work while waiting.

[ Specialist Hirek tr'Aimne | Corridor Outside the Arboretum | Deck 21 | USS Theurgy ]

Hirek stood just beyond the arboretum's threshold with his hands clasped behind his back and listened to a memorial for people he had not known long enough to mourn properly, delivered by a Federation president whose authority over him was precisely as binding as he chose to let it be. Which was to say: not very.

He was aware of the irony. He had spent the better part of his adult life working against the Tal'Shiar's insistence that loyalty was owed to institutions rather than to the people and places that actually deserved it, and here he stood in a Federation corridor exercising the same logic in a different direction. He found this symmetry mildly entertaining. A man who could not appreciate the absurdities of his own situation was going to be very tiresome company, and Hirek had never aspired to be tiresome.

He had not entered because entry implied a claim of membership he had not yet decided to make. The distinction mattered — not as pride, but as accuracy. He was a man who preferred to know precisely what he was standing in before he stood in it. The Uuluma Islands had taught him that early: the reefs around the island looked calm from above and were anything but below, and a free diver who did not read the currents before descending was a free diver who did not come back up. He had learned to commit his weight only after assessment. It was a habit that had kept him alive through two wars and several decades of work that could not be named in polite company.

President Bacco's voice carried the particular quality of someone who understood that the weight of a statement was partly in its silences. Hirek appreciated this. The Tal'Shiar had never needed to learn it, operating on the principle that weight could be applied directly and the silences filled with fear. His mother had diagnosed the error precisely: the Tal'Shiar had confused the mechanism of power with the thing that power was supposed to protect. They had inverted the relationship, pointed the weapon at their own people, and called the result security.

He thought about the islands. Not nostalgia — the Uuluma Islands were still there, still producing the distilled liquor the resident families were famous for, still wrapped in those clear waters where the jumbo mollusk clung to the reefs. He had built his own labs there after the Dominion War, when the College stopped interesting him and something — that Romulan instinct for approaching pressure fronts — told him to be patient. Something else was coming. He had been right. He usually was. This was either a talent or a curse depending on how much warning it provided before the storm arrived.

That had been when uncle  Maec Ethienhad, inadvertently, introduced him to the Madsens. Two of them dead in his family's service. Isa Leigh Madsen, who had chosen her own death over interrogation at the Citadel Val'Theldun. Ernan Lars Madsen, who had died in the rarest kind of human way — deliberately, the calculation running not toward self-preservation but toward what the math required. Hirek had killed Ernan Madsen at Madsen's direction, cleanly and without hesitation, because hesitation would have made it worse for both of them. He had not felt particularly good about it afterward. He had also not felt particularly bad, which said something about the person the Tal'Shiar's interference had helped make him, and which he generally preferred not to examine in detail.

He owed the Madsens a blood debt. He had understood this the moment he learned Lieutenant Enyd Isolde Madsen's name on Qo'Nos — the particular arrested moment when a long equation resolves into something legible. He had kept it because it was accurate, and he had always found accuracy more durable than sentiment as a motivation. Enyd Madsen was, from what he had observed, an extremely inconvenient person to be in debt to. This amused him enormously.

The recent news from home was less amusing: a public declaration on political leanings. His family had carefully maintained neutrality since the horrors had become untenable. His mother rendered sterile by state decree — an old wound his father had never stopped grinding his teeth over. His uncle Maec Ethien dead as he had lived: in precise defiance, with the last laugh arranged in advance. A thoroughly Aimne way to go. But now they were risking themselves and the islands by supporting the new Reman-Romulan government.

The Reman Senator's request also sat in a different compartment — the one he kept for things probably true in their surface framing and certainly true in a less flattering one. Senator Vkruvux was not wrong that a dissenting voice among the Theurgy's crew might prove useful to the emerging Reman-Romulan moment. The Senator was also not wrong that keeping Hirek here, removed from Romulan soil, meant keeping a specific variety of complication at a convenient distance. Both things could be simultaneously true. The question was always which one the person asking you to participate actually cared about.

He had not decided.

He inclined his head slightly toward the arboretum. For the dead. For the Romulans lost in the mess the Infested had made of the Civil War. For Ernan and Isa Madsen, who had no stone here but whose names he kept in a private accounting at least as reliable as any carved wall. For his uncle Maec Ethien, who had died with a smile, which was the correct way to die if one must die in a cause. For the children his mother could have had were it not for the Tal'Shiar.

The corridor held him in its quality of not-quite-darkness, the recycled air carrying the faint green undertone of the arboretum through the closed doors. Hirek breathed it in and thought of open water and the moons of Romulus rising over the islands, and the way his father had said his hidden name — Kejail — as though it contained something worth keeping safe.

He would decide tomorrow.
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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epilogue: They That Shed Their Blood [Day 03 | 1800 ]
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[ Lt. JG Donna ‘Chance’ Petterson | Arborteum Cafe | Deck 20 | Vector 03 | USS Theurgy ]
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Donna stood in the Café, gazing down at the assembled crew gathered for the memorial. The pilot wondered what was going through their minds, if their thoughts matched her own.

“How many more of these will there be before its done? And will I live to see them all?”

[ Lt. T'Less | Bridge | Deck 01 | Vector 01 | USS Theurgy ]
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T’Less was on the Bridge, manning the Tactical Station, while the broadcast of the Memorial was being shown on the main viewscreen. She listened as she worked, reviewing the condition of the Theurgy’s offensive and defensive systems.

“How soon will we need them again?”

[ PO3 Lorad | Corridor | Deck 08 | Vector 02 | USS Theurgy ]
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Lorad shut off the plasma torch as the damaged section of hull frame fell to the deck at his feet. After speaking with Commander Cross he had gone to meet with the Chief Engineer, Commander Arnold, who had given him a kit and put him to work. And there was a lot of work to be done.

“You’re hurting as much as your crew is,” he said to the ship. “But we’ll look after you if you’ll look after us.”

[ CPO Mickayla MacGregor | Arboretum | Deck 22 | Vector 03 | USS Theurgy  ]
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Mickayla gazed up at the Federation President as she spoke. She had to admit, the silver-haired woman was a wonderful orator. Her words sparked hope and the idea of a peaceful future for them once the threat was dealt with.

“There is always another threat.”

[ Crewman Samala | The Apache | Hawk-class Runabout | Main Shuttlebay | Deck 11 | Vector 01 | USS Theurgy ]
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The cargo bay was quiet. She’d shut the rear ramp so that she didn’t have to listen to the service that others had broadcasting while they worked. She worked to try and keep her mind occupied. To try and stop the thoughts that kept breaking into her mind.

“Do I stay here or go with my own kind?”


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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: EPI S: [Day 03 | 0415] Bubble-suit Bitchassness
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[ Ens. Via "DixeBee" Wix | Sickbay | “Temporary Iso Ward” – Storage Closet | Deck 11 | Vector 02 | USS Theurgy ] Attn: @Dumedion
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"Oh yeah. Why don't you come in here and suffocate on these-" Via's response was cut short by Shadow's interjection. While she wasn't suprised she was happy her savior was actually trying to save her and Charles. The young pilot smirked as Shadow brought up a great point but them looking healthy but then glared at her RIO when he was about to speak up about having been sick for the last couple days.

Via nearly jumped up with glee when Shadow went ahead and called the doctor a 'bitchass' too. "HA! See, you can't keep our asses in here forever! I got badass friends everywhere!" She spoke up to the dismbodied voice.

"Ma'am". Charles spoke up and attemped to shuffle to the right revealing a sealed crate labeled 'spare tricorders' behind him.  "There is a crate behind me. Alas I cannot open it." He demonsitrated the problem to Shadow by trying to move his fingers. No matter how much he tried to manupliate them they remained fastly in place. "Look? No dexterity. And it looks like the crate is looked with a passcode-"

"Hey, Nurse bitchass, give our asses the passcode for these tricorders!"

"I would've asked nicely ma'am". Charles sighed

"Why do our asses gotta be nice? He's been a bitchass this entire time". Via chimed back

"Because he holds the keys to our freedom possibly"

"Ugh, well now HE knows that! Great job Beachhead. Now our asses are goin to be stuck here." Via rolled her eyes.

"You will be the death of me..." Charles shook his head and sighed

"Wait a sec'- Shadow you can just hack it! Its easy, I do it all the time."

"Your hologames don't count ma'am."

"Shut your dumbass up. You are just jealous you ain't a master hacker like me." Via said proudly

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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epilogue: They That Shed Their Blood [Day 03 | 1800 ]
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[ Sylvain Llewellyn-Kth | Arboretum Terrace - Memorial Wall | Deck 21 | Vector 3| USS Theurgy ] Attn: @Brutus @Nolan @ob2lander961 @Dumedion @chXinya @Griff @rae @Stegro88 @RyeTanker @Eirual @tongieboi @Pierce @Tae @Nesota Kynnovan @Hans Applegate @Ellen Fitz @Krajin @P.C. Haring @Eden @joshs1000

Sylvain’s gaze felt hollow as he stared up towards Commander Stark, his tired eyes burning against the harsh lighting of the arboreum, a beautiful room, though the occasion could scarcely afford him a chance to appreciate it. The trees on the floor below him grew surprisingly tall for a Starship, weeping with vines, with verdant canopies that brushed against the glass railing that separated the terrace from the arboretum below. In between the Commander’s words, filling the silences that rippled out from each pause she took, was the sound of trickling water, a gentle noise, peaceful in the face of so much death.

It reminded him of Betazed. The El’nar Institute, more specifically; the way their halls had been so adorned with foliage and plant life, flowers from hundreds of different planets, all regrown on a new world for the purpose of giving comfort to those who were lost… It also reminded him of Starfleet Academy, their flowerbeds and landscaping that stretched out around the campus, undisturbed, or even Captain Yume’s favourite holodeck program, a place on Earth called Kielder Forest. He’d asked her about it once, and she’d said that nature was where life met tranquility.

It was a line that had stayed with him since…

Aside from Betazed and Starfleet Academy, nature had always been far removed from his life; Starships weren’t often so well gardened as the Theurgy’s arboretum, nor was Deep Space Sixteen, and Vulcan was possessed of a very different kind of nature.. He’d considered in his bleaker moments, that perhaps a lack of nature was why he’d always found tranquility to be somewhat lacking in his life… He resolved himself to come here again, if he got the chance, when it was neither so busy nor so bleak, to take the time to fully appreciate the taste of nature held within the room. Sylvain wasn't sure if he found it morose or comforting, that something as simple as moss and bracken had endured the hardship that had claimed so many lives, but either way, he could agree with his old Captain’s words to some extent; there was something calming about the presence of nature.

But for now, the calm was something that he could not take the time to fully absorb. Instead, Sylvain could only swallow drily around his brittle throat, his breathing soft and his mind cloudy, as he continued to listen to Commander Stark’s speech. Or at least, try to listen.

He was tired.

Not the sort of tiredness that made him long for his bed at the end of a long shift, but a harrowing yearning for the peaceful bliss of unconsciousness, and a willingness to let it take him for as long as it saw fit. The Ensign’s eyes felt sunken in their sockets, throbbing against his skull, whilst his stomach was aflood with nausea and uncertainty, a toxic cocktail brewed out of his overwhelming anxiety, unbearable guilt, and the fact that the only ‘rest’ he’d gotten since arriving on the Theurgy, had been when he’d been knocked unconscious and intubated aboard the Euridite. It was an odd counterpoint, exhausted to the very fragment of his sanity, yet also wired to the point of euphoria, his body still aflood with adrenaline and firing nerves, his limbs unable to contain their trembling even as he stood amongst the crowd in the arboretum, feeling like the odd one out in the sea of bodies listening to Commander Stark make her address.

Sylvain had opted for a space as close to the back of the room as possible, far removed from where the Commander and the entourage from the Federation were standing… It felt more respectful, to keep himself out of the way. He’d been aboard the Theurgy long enough to understand that it was different to most of the other ships in Starfleet; they’d been together through the worst of it, and they’d bonded together in a way that many crews never did… He supposed that being the only carrier of a secret that could destroy the entire galaxy, it was natural that the Theurgy had become more than a ship and a crew, but something of a home and a family.

And Sylvain was still a stranger to that family.

Of the hundred-odd names inscribed into the walls around him, there was perhaps only two he would recognise; he’d only spoken with a handful of people since he’d come aboard, and he understood most of them to still be alive. Commander Stark,  Lieutenant Commander Cross, Lieutenant Sh’lann, Officer Lok… And they were all confirmed by the casualty reports to be alive and well; Sylvain had been through the list thoroughly, after all.

In fact, the only names on the list he had any recollection of, were Crewman Core Davison and Lieutenant Katherine MacFarlane.

The former had been a thorn in his side, roping him unwillingly into her subterfuge aboard the Erudite, that had likely spoiled the alliance between the Theurgy and the Savi, but also come to save lives aboard the Hobus Station. In reality, he hadn’t been all too fond of the woman, she was reckless, arrogant, and manipulative, not to mention that she’d broken about seven hundred Starfleet regulations with her shenanigans… Yet, she’d tried, in her own way, to help him see the grittier realities of their situation, to peel back the gilded velvet curtain of Starfleet ideals, that Sylvain preferred to keep tightly drawn, and show him what life looked like when it was the total opposite of everything that Starfleet could be…

Had she been alive, he might have found some smug comfort in the knowledge that she’d know that Starfleet had come through for them, in the end… Now that she was dead, he could only feel a coldness in his chest, an unreasonable anger that she didn’t believe in Starfleet, tempered only by a devouring sadness at the thought that she died with that same disbelief… He could still feel the memory core she’d extracted from the Erudite burning a hole in his pocket; he’d not had the time to hand it off to a superior Officer as of yet. Truth be told, he wasn’t even sure that he wanted to, now that the only person who could explain it away was dead…

And then there was MacFarlane, someone he’d scarcely spoken to, nothing beyond operation critical callouts during the battle with the Romulans. The woman who’d been bisected so close to him that he could smell the blood in the air… Sylavin took another sharp breath in through his nose, pushing that memory of blood from his mind. The Chief Conn Officer vomiting during a memorial service, was not befitting his station as a senior officer.

Instead, he focussed on the words of their Commander, though his mind quickly drifted back to the people around him, and the cloying guilt that haunted his soul.

It was impossible for him to share a space with so many mourning officers, and not bitterly wonder how many of their tears were his own fault…

He was the pilot, after all.

Every move the Helmet had made during the battle, every impact he’d evaded, every hit that they’d taken, had ultimately been decided by him, and himself alone. Any one of those decisions might’ve been the reason that one of the people standing around him now, were missing a loved one, a friend, a colleague… Sylvain knew that a ship didn’t go through battle without taking some hits, but he couldn’t help but agonise over the manoeuvres he’d made as he stood amongst the repercussions. He only knew two names on that wall; how had the Theurgy managed to keep hope alive for so long, when hundreds had passed since they’d first departed Earth…?

Even in his moroseness, Sylvain was aware that he’d done everything he could, everything he could, to keep their ship safe during the conflict… But he found it futile to try and take comfort in such knowledge. He’d analysed every fragment of data available to him during the battle, plotted every manoeuvre with surgical precision, and even delivered some of the most unorthodox flying he’d ever been responsible for… And yet, still, things had happened that he hadn’t anticipated, things that sensors and mathematics couldn’t account for… Perhaps if he were smarter, or more experienced, or less crippled by the gilded phantom of foresight that whispered within his head, things might have turned out differently. Perhaps there would have been fewer names etched into the arboretum walls.

Or perhaps there would be more…

The Ensign twitched his fingers as he listened to the Commander’s words of hope and sacrifice, to the shouts of affirmation from the gathered crowd around him, untied in their loss…

He couldn’t bring himself to join them.

Instead, he pressed his hands softly into fists, closing his eyes in a long blink as he swallowed against the pain it brought him. The pads of his fingertips were scoured raw, the result of hours upon hours spent at his console, a burning in his digits that had had him half expecting to leave trails of blood with each fresh motion he made across the panel… It was nothing, in the grand scheme of things, but Sylvain offered the moment of pain as a silent reminder to those who they’d lost. To those he might’ve gotten killed…

His pain subsided as the words of the Federation President spoke, a woman whom Sylvain had always assumed an address from would be the highest honour in Starfleet… Instead, the boy couldn’t help but feel as though her address had been cheapened by his presence…

He hadn’t endured. He hadn’t sacrificed. And he was no victim…

He’d been on the ship for little over two days; what gave him the right to stand next to those who’d endured so much more than he had? To bathe in the same recollection of dignity and honour that was afforded to them? His dry eyes prickled with a heavy request, and Sylvain denied it, blinking away the tears that threatened to push through his lids, as he stoically straightened his back, his lips forming around a wordless whisper, a silent apology that he hadn’t been better, that he couldn’t have done more. It was an admission of guilt, an expression of appreciation, and an acceptance of fate.

“Thank you, for your sacrifice…”

He spoke silently, addressing nobody, and everybody, all at once.
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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epi: S [Day 03 | 0145] By these wounds...
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Lt. JG Callax Valin | Main Sickbay | Deck 11 | Vector 02 | USS Theurgy] @Ellen Fitz @Dumedion @Krajin  @RyeTanker
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Cal just blinked.

He expected a name, not a full background history. Not that he was not interested in knowing. Quite the opposite. Alien menageries were popular for a reason. People, despite possible moral objections, were often drawn to the weird and abnormal. Cal was no exception. Whether it was chisme or a barely concealed secret, he wanted to know the details.

“They forced me to shift. Repeatedly. Faster and more frequently than my biology allows. They wished to understand how the changes occur at a molecular level.” Her jaw tightened. “They were not gentle.”

Before he could respond, she continued with an assessment of his legs.

“The damage may be temporary,” she said after a moment. “Or permanent. I don’t yet know.” Her voice softened, just a fraction. “If it is permanent… then I will live with pain. With being nothing and everything all at once.” She straightened, drawing herself back into professional stillness. “If you have further needs, I will stay,” she said calmly. “Otherwise, Doctor Leux may require my assistance in the cryo section.”

Again, he was about to reply when a less friendly voice chimed in. A voice he recognized.

“Get to cryo – big black cat will need a trauma blanket to get his temp up and 5cc’s of Somnam. Keep him calm till I get back,” he said to the wolf-lady. “Vi, work fast this looks bad,” he added to the medical android.

"Oh dear," the android said.

Well that can't be good.

The organics moved off leaving him with the android.

“I must say, you have the most beautifully unique neurological chemistry,” Vi confessed. “I encourage you to relax and trust in me to perform my function now, Mr. Valin. Nice, slow breaths – you will discover the atmospheric composition altered to that of your home world – a curtesy I hope you find... pleasurable.”

Was the android flirting with him?

He knew there were androids with programming to do... that. Certainly in the red light districts of some seedier planets, but he did not expect it on a Starfleet vessel. Of course, his cognitive abilities were still impacted by the cocktail of sedatives in his system so maybe he was misreading the situation. If not... well, some robot 'parts' were better than their organic counterparts. Or so he's heard.

"Thank you?"

His hesitation was partially due to the sudden movement of the bio-bed forcing himself into a spread-eagle position. Yep, this is how those holovids usually began...

“Oh, there’s no reason to fret,” her lens blinked slowly, as his wounds were encased in a bio-synthetic mix of restorative jelly, cool to the touch. Vi-Nine initiated contact with his chest wound via a port interface. The fingers of her free hand stroked the pilot’s cheek tenderly. “This won’t take long at all, I promise.”

"If you say so..."

He was not yet convinced.

“Such a rarity, having a patient to talk to,” Vi-Nine giggled shyly. “Over 92 percent are unconscious or rendered so by necessity. I hope you agree with this vocal exchange of information? Perhaps…would you tell me a story? Something of your home world, or…yourself,” she whispered dreamily, curiosity at odds with the throaty huskiness of pleasure. “Data recollection of historically emotional significance is among the highest proven cognitive method of temporal disassociation among organics, after all,” the android added through a breathy exhalation, while her free hand lifted from the patient’s head with a hum of assurance.

Ah yes. Temporal disassociation is just what he needed.

"Was there some sort of obscure consent form I accidentally signed?" He managed to groan through gritted teeth. The pain was reduced but still present. Though he could not 'feel' it as much, his mind was still hyper aware of its presence.

He didn't want for an answer before continuing. If they wanted a story, he would give them a story. "Well, there was that one time I misjudged a threesome with an Andorian and a Risan on Risa. It turned out they were not looking to 'jump my bones', so to speak, but were actually interested in the balcony access my room provided to the adjacent suite. They were undercover law enforcement and rather than meeting my expectations, I instead returned to Ardana with an amusing story and a citation for excessive consumption of Romulan ale."

The android was right. Recalling memories of historically emotional significance did put him in a better mood and he smiled at the recollection.

"I still have never been with an Andorian. What about yourself? How is the android dating scene these days?"
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Episode 02: Cosmic Imperative / Re: Epilogue: They That Shed Their Blood [Day 03 | 1800 ]
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[CPO Avandar Lok | Flight Deck | Fighter Assault Bay | Deck 16 | Vector 03 | USS Theurgy] Attn: @Brutus  @Nolan  @ob2lander961  @chXinya  @Dumedion  @Griff  @rae  @Stegro88  @Eirual  @RyeTanker  @tongieboi  @Pierce  @Tae  @Nesota Kynnovan  @Hans Applegate  @Ellen Fitz  @P.C. Haring  @Krajin  @Eden  @TWilkins
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It was deathly quiet on the deck, apart from the hum of machinery and the occasional sounds made by the ferasan Chief as he went about his duties, alone. Lok had already dismissed the deck gang, practically ordering them to attend the memorial. He stayed behind, he had been to enough of them, the Dominion War produced plenty of grief and it was not the way Lok chose to wallow in his sorrow. Diving into his work, that’s what he needed, something to occupy his mind while it worked things out in the background, all the while he told himself, guys get killed, it’s war. Perhaps cold and callous but he knew if he let himself think about those who had been lost, seeing their shattered bodies, smelling their blood, it would knock him down when he was needed most. He just needed to keep up the work and work and work until exhaustion forced him to sleep, wake up once more and repeat, day after day, until those names were just names.

So he worked.

There was plenty of it, Cross wanted more planes, he’d get more planes, Lok was scrounging everything left in the hangar, the holds, and whatever he could fabricate to add more Frankensteined spacecraft to the roster, even if there were no pilots to fly them. That wasn’t his problem too at least. The eight working fighters were arranged near the mouth of the hangar, their parking spaces cleaned up, each bird almost factory new, ready to go at a moment’s notice. Lok and his crew had worked all night to get them ready, just in case. Arranged in a row along the port side of the hangar further forward were six Valkyries in various states of assembly, each one had its own unique problems. Across from them to starboard was the accumulated piles of parts, piles of junk from the battle damage waiting to be removed, and the equipment from the engineers to repair the armory and facilities damaged by the accidental torpedo discharge when Ghost crashed.

One of the disassembled fighters was Valkyrie 1087, currently up on jack stands, its gutted nacelles lying in a heap just in front of it. Here Lok sat, silently working away on the removed warp core. The fighter had belonged to, he didn’t remember who, but it was recovered mostly intact from the battlefield. The primary space frame was in good shape apart from where the forward cockpit area had been hit by a torpedo and most of the main power systems as well as the weapons were in decent shape. What was not in good shape were the warp nacelles, shredded by either shrapnel or debris, only some of the warp coils and plasma injector equipment could be salvaged, the rest would have to be fabricated or scrounged from somewhere else.

For the moment though, all Lok concerned himself with was removing the primary dilithium crystal from the core. The articulation frame had been damaged, twisted, he wasn’t sure how, but it was causing a problem in getting the crystal free. While dilithium was generally abundant, Theurgy had plenty in stock, the raw crystals required very little refining for the larger cores, the sheer amount of matter and anti-matter run through them that heavily refined crystals did very little in terms of efficiency of the reaction. This was not so for the high performance cores used on the fighters, their crystals required additional cutting, polishing, and furnace treatments to remove most impurities. Thus, the crystals could not easily be replaced, maybe Theurgy would get a new batch now that they were supposedly back with the Federation but Lok still aired on the side of caution as he gently tried to work the clear pink gem from its prison.

With one hand he held a pair of channel locks, their teeth wrapped in a bit of cloth to not scratch the crystal’s surface, while in the other was a screw driver (also cloth wrapped) that he was using to try and loosen the tight grip of the bent articulation frame. Gently he applied pressure to the screwdriver, using it like a pry bark to bend the frame, while his other hand wiggled the crystal in hopes it would slip free. Lok thought he had it and jerked on the crystal, only for the whole articulation frame to slip out of his hands and fall to the deck. He tried to lunch for it but watched almost in slow motion as the assembly flipped over and landed directly onto the dilithium crystal, shattering the unclamped potion into several large pieces. Lok looked at the shards as he felt a buildup of pure rage emanating from his chest.

Unable to contain it he let out a shout that broke the tranquil silence of the hangar and put all his strength into kicking the articulation frame off into some corner as he whipped around and kicked an open toolbox. The tools spilled onto the ground with a metallic clatter, a tricorder that had been sitting on top of the tools bounced across the flight deck shedding pieces of its case as it went.

This only served to infuriate him more. The ferasan whipped back around, spying his next target, the fuselage of Valkyrie 1087. He didn’t even hesitate as he repeated brought both of his clenched fists down upon the metal panel, shouting hoarsely, “FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!”

He stood there for several moments that felt like minutes, his back and shoulders rising in falling as he panted until finally his legs seemed to fail him and he slumped to the ground. Tears filled his eyes, the frustration, the helplessness, always lingering under the surface. Lok wasn’t even supposed to be here. He should have been doing what Starfleet did best, exploring the unknown aboard Perseus. Chief Covington should have been here, not him, Ensign Herrald should have been here, not him, he should have jumped ship when they were over Earth.

Lok inhaled, a ragged breath, then exhaled, his eyes glanced over to the spilled tools, salvation. In moments he was on his hands and knees picking up the mechanical implements and setting them gently back into the toolbox. There was still plenty of work to do and now he needed a new dilithium crystal, there were a few stored away, he just needed to clean up the mess he made first.

So he worked.



Cmdr. (3rd) Hassar al-Zaheer | Arboretum | Deck 22 | Vector 03 | USS Theurgy]
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The mood in the arboretum was thick and dour. The crew of Theurgy and other representatives from other ships and even the President of the Federation herself, had all gathered to mourn the dead and say something meaningful. For Hassar and the other vaharrans the whole thing felt strange, death was seen as a normal part of life, if one chose to mourn the passing of someone they knew, it was in private, all matters of cremation and interment of the ashes of the deceased was handled by the monks.Those that followed Kyros understood that for those who maintained a life of balance, death was not the end and instead viewed the loss with optimism.

However, Hassar knew of the customs of humans and several other species from his time with Starfleet as part of their Officer Exchange, many preferred this form of open remembrance, whether they believed in an afterlife or not. Out of respect for their allies, he decided that he and the rest of his Marines would join. Their group stayed near the back of the crowd, standing out in their blue jumpsuits, having not brought proper dress uniforms with them, but they had put on black armbands, suggested to them by one of the crew.

Hassar listened to the speeches that the President and Commander Stark gave, both passionate and emotional, describing the trials that Theurgy and her crew had gone through and those they had lost along the way. Hassar had to admit it was a bit eye opening, he had not realized the extent of hardship that this ship had seen. He couldn’t help but feel reminded of his time in The Fleet, the years of roaming through space. It was difficult to consider back then that they would ever find a place to call home and that one day they would all perish entombed in the last vestiges of their civilization. He often wondered after they encountered aliens, what if they had found the last ship of his people, cold and lifeless, the last vaharran, a skeleton, slumped in the pilot’s seat. He shuddered to think of it, but part of him knew that far back in their history, it had happened, over a dozen ships left and were never seen again.

The end of the President’s speech snapped Hassar out of his wandering mind and he re-focussed on the balcony above while feeling a little embarrassed that he had allowed his thoughts to so thoroughly draw his focus away from this somber moment. Hardly a moment of true discipline.

He stood up straighter and focussed his vision on the group one level up, waiting for the next portion of the service to begin.
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